Wednesday, January 12, 2011


Ok people, this is organized, or as organized as you are gonna get in my house. And you know how long it stayed like this? For about 2 minutes. Every once in awhile, I blow up. Emotional melt down. You'd probably think it was more often, but a few emotional meltdowns ago I went and saw my doctor and cried to him for about an hour before he put me on some meds to help with my anxiety, patience and overall mood. I told my Dr. "I feel like I need to smoke pot." He laughed as I was completely serious. He's always been very attentive to my situation and as in "situation" it means two 3 year olds and a newborn. Asking me how it is going? Do I feel all right? Most of the time I try to keep it together, pretend like I am supermom and say, "Oh, ya I am great!" "This whole motherhood thing is butterflies and rainbows." But the honest to god truth, it's f*&^ing hard. Really really hard.
I seriously feel like all I do is change diapers, clean, clean, clean, laundry, laundry, laundry, cook, cook, cook, yell, and then clean some more. So, when asked today by a mom at gymnastics if I was going to go back to work when the kids are in school? The answer "HELL NO!" I am going to drink my coffee, watch the Today show, take a nice bath, and go to the gym.

Every day I am challenged. I feel like as soon as I get used to dealing with one phase, another starts and I have to learn to conquer that one and so on.....So, now I have my biggest hurdle yet....potty training. My kids have had NO interest whatsoever. But now, with their 3rd birthday only one month away (WTH?? It's been 3 years?) they are starting to FINALLY show interest. So, I am going to roll my sleeves, get the steamcleaner ready, candy bowl filled and get them to go potty in toilet.


Alexis Gradwohl said...

Amen sister to the not going back to work! You are going to need a vacation after they are at school! The Today show with no one yelling for more fish crackers sounds like heaven to me!

Jill said...

You have conquered it ten-fold Katie. It cracks me up thinking about the Katie I used to know. Honestly though, you are doing awesome! I sure as hell couldn't do what you are doing. Work? Way over it. NEVER go back! Yay for Travis the money maker. Yay for you the awesome mom. Love you!

Heather Conniff said...

I love your honestly and transparency, so funny! I LOVE that you told your doct that you wanted to smoke pot, SO funny, you know in California they can write you a prescription for that, perhaps Travis needs to start building homes in Cali? XOXO